These days, I am wondering.

Actually, any day I wonder.

It began sometime after birth when I realized that those pink things that I kept seeing were actually attached to me...though it took me a while to learn they were toes and feet.

History class found me wondering about Roman mosaics and why I had to learn all the dates of history instead of just the order?

I wondered when my kids were born.  Who will they become and am I the kind of person who can love them into a whole life of their own wonder and adventure?

And during church looking at the sparkly windows or the widows with their wrinkled hands...

This season has been a "harsh grace"; a peeling of the old singed dead skin to make way for the fresh and new.

I have taken pride in so much of the burnt flesh; the cracklins of a life that testifies to a person in process (and a God who is not sleeping.)

So when I sensed a mysterious God whispering, "I desire humility over talent," I began to wonder.

And ask more questions.

"I can use humility."

"Too much talent (or perceived talent) paves the way for arrogance...which I cannot use."

So this is what I am wondering about.

And when I dove into a quiet time of listening last night, this is what I found:

1 Peter 5 :5,6,7 (MSG)

5 God has had it with the proud,

   But takes delight in just plain people.

 6-7So be content with who you are, and don't put on airs. God's strong hand is on you; he'll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you.